I have so much stuff I need to do today that I don't even know where to start! The first part of the day I need to spend some time researching Phoenix bankruptcy laws. I've been promising my friend I would help her out with this for weeks. She helped me out while I was going through that bad breakup. It was the worst one I ever went through, so I definitely owe her. This was right around the time when she should've been spending most of her time studying for her big law exam. I was so worried she wouldn't pass on account of me, but she still managed to do well. She was a huge support. It's hard to focus on all of this other stuff when I have something else, someone else, on my mind. I'm tired of being such a mess over him. Why is it so hard for me to put him out of my mind? His birthday is coming up this Friday. If we were still together, I would be making him a chocolate cake from scratch. It was his favorite. He would come over in the evening and we'd celebrate, just the two of us. I'd watch him blow out his candles. We celebrated so many birthdays that way. I really don't think anyone will love him as much as I did.  I don't think he realizes yet what a big mistake he made.